I Would

If I could see you again,
I would smile at you more often,
I would tell you how much I care and not think twice,
I would repent for all the lies.

If I could see you again,
I would kiss the ground you walked in,
I would treasure your each and every breath,
I would've joined you in death.

If I could see you again,
I' would talk to you for hours on end,
and cherish every second we spend.
Yes.... I will be different.

If I could see you one more time,
or even if I could press Life's rewind,
I would treat you with more kindness than before,
if only I'd be given an encore.

If Only, If Only, If Only.
If Only I Could,
I Would.

Life

Life take me into an embrace,
show me warmth and grace,
put a smile on my face,
let me walk proud,
let me not be to be to loud,
teach me kindness and humility,
shun me away from cruelty,
let those who are cruel,
come not near me.

Life, do not forget me,
even after I am gone,
do not forget me,
remember that I once loved you,
once appreciated you,
sang your praises,
Life, do not forget me.

Life you are a friend,
a journey worthwile,
and those who deny you life,
those who throw you away,
forgive them life,
forgive them for they are lost,
they not know how to appreciate you,
they know not how to appreciate He who created you.

Life, thank you.

For Saskia

Troubled by the memories,
of a passionate lover,
whose love for me was genuine,
yet I find myself in tears.

I saw her standing at a distance,
captured I was by her alluring beauty,
that I found,
she was in every thought I had.

Driven to speak to her,
by forces that are incomprehensible,
and against my mind's logic,
I found her in front of me.

Plenty of smiles and laughter,
as well as tears and pain,
I did not appreciate her,
now I will never see her again.

distant cries of pain,
screaming and pleading,
like someone insane,
I knew where I was heading.

is beauty worth the price,
is passion worth the depression,
is love worth the lies,
if so,
love I despise.

Good Bye

Its not fair,
that I should love you with all my heart,
while you don't even care.
When did my feelings start?
and when will it end?
so that this pain you give me,
I can begin to defend.
Why do you have to lie
about feelings that aren't there,
do you like to see me cry?
why can't you care?

I'm tired of loving you,
someone who doesn't love me,
I guess the only thing left to do
is look for better company.
I leave you with a hug and a good-bye,
this is the last time I'm ever going to cry
for you.

Coincidence with Meaning Pt 3

You can't hurt me,
if you mean nothing to me.
So go back from whence you came,
and take all your lies with you,
for I am done with them.

Your words are as beautiful as an angel's,
yet as venomous as a rattle snake,
I should have known what I was up against,
when I put my heart at stake.
You live and learn.

Try not to bother,
to deceive me any longer,
I have grown tired of your voice,
which I find an ugly noise.
You move on.

I am not lost with you,
because I am not missing,
you don't need me too,
with all those men you've been kissing.
You acknowledge the truth.

I wish you were honest,
I wish you were special,
but as it turns out,
you really are the devil.
You see reality.

Now you regret
and just want to forget,
all the times you spent,
in all the places you went.
You leave a piece of you.

You want to be in peace,
so you beg the Lord "Please,
take me with ease,"
in hope that your suffering will cease.
You hurt deeply.

I saw an angel with a broken wing,
that asked a beautiful bird to sing.
What amazing joy it brought,
that all pain, the angel forgot.
You're Broken.

Who Is He?

He understood that he had a destiny,
and that it would one day catch up,
he was to live a life of misery,
and therein he would always be stuck.

His life would be defined by his tears,
and no one would ever know,
that he would suffer in his remaining years,
that he would die so very slow.

Did he really think life was fair,
to give him someone who would care,
or was it all just a fantasy,
of his sad cruel reality.

I would like to tell this Man,
no one loves you, no one can,
all you can do is accept your fate,
then find a way to escape.

I Seek A Woman

Where do I go from here?
with this heart filled with love,
people are out to get it I fear
so I must quickly move.
Who can I trust?
to accompany me on this journey,
curse these woman with lust
who have forgotten how to love unconditionally.
I seek a woman whose joy is to smile,
I seek a woman whose heart is pure,
I seek a woman whose company is worthwhile,
I seek a woman whose love will endure.
I seek a woman whose cause is just,
I seek a woman who can be my friend,
I seek a woman whom I can trust
but most of all
I seek a woman whom I can love till the end.

A Favor

I have but one favor to ask,
it is but a simple task,
don't put me to shame,
if I were to ask you for your name.

If I were to ask you for your name,
don't put me to blame
for being captivated by your beauty,
for its God who made you smile so sweetly.

I only wish to know your name,
and no love is not a game
but I think I'm in love with you,
so love at first sight must be true.

I only wish to know your name,
nothing more than your name,
and if you wish to know mine
then there truly is a God Divine.

Love? Dream? Reality?

Silence, utter silence,
absence of sound,
but yet my mind in screaming,
its screaming your name,
so that the apparent silence
and its supposed peace and calm,
is meaningless.

Why am I hearing your name?
now, at this very moment,
why does it bring me such joy,
to think of it, hear it and even pronounce it.
It forces me to smile,
tells my heart to dance
and causes my eyes to stare at apparent nothingness.

It must be love,
for I am constantly tempted
to imagine you with me.
It must be love,
because I am starting to dream
of you often.
It must be love,
and I must be crazy,
because I long to see you everyday.

I long to hug you,
to hold you in my arms,
to feel your breath on my shoulder,
to feel the warmness of your embrace,
to feel your heart beat close to mine.
I love you,
but love should be felt between 2 people,
not just 1 person,
So if you don't feel the same way,
then please forget me,
for I'd rather think that you don't exist,
then believe you do,
and know that I can't be with you...

Maybe this too is just a dream,
and your a part of it,
or maybe I'm not worthy of your love,
either way,
I'm glad to have been gifted some time with you,
and those times I shall cherish.

Dream

Oh how I want you,
to be close to you,
to hug and comfort you,
to kiss and embrace you,
to call you my love,
to sing to you,
to make you laugh,
but alas, what is it?
if not a dream.

To see you smile,
is to catch a glimpse of heaven,
to hear you laugh,
is to hear them sing.
If it were just a dream,
may I never wake,
for If I did,
it would be to hell that I awake,
for the torture,
of not being with you...
Is unbearable.

:( hehe

Maybe she will never love me,
and that I must accept,
though it maybe a tragedy,
I regret nothing I did, or said.

She will always have a place in my heart,
and one more in my mind,
God's greatest work of art,
whose beautiful character, is one of a kind!

So now that I'm depressed,
please God, put me to rest,
leave me forever more alone,
and turn this heart of mine, to stone.

I Love You.

Know this, that I love you, with every beat of my heart, every breath that enters my body, and every thought I can conjure. You are my angel, my shining light, the lighthouse when I am the lost ship. You are my friend, and the one whom I love too. Just the very sight of you, is enough to please me, a smile from you is worth 2 hours of conversation. I love you, I love you, I love you... I can't seem to be able to stop saying that, I love your smile, the way you look at me, I love your silly jokes, I love just walking with you. I love you, but its tragic that I can't have you.. And this love inside of me, is wasted on words, words that mean little. You are always in my thoughts, in my dreams, in my prayers, you're the first thing I think about in the morning, and the last thing I think about before I sleep. I love you, pure and simple, you make my heart skip beats that it actually feels like I can't breath, I love you.

Love's Enough (feelings & thoughts)

Why is love never enough ? Somehow all people want is more, they don't know love's true value, its priceless. To love, to share with someone, all your dreams and aspirations, as they share their's with you, and to want nothing in return, just a smile. To love, to appreciate the existence of another human being, to the point, where yours would be insignificant without them. To love, to feel such warmth in the arms of another person, where that warmth gives you hope in the face of adversity. To love, to love unconditionally, regardless, of weight, financial status, beauty rating, race or religion, for its that person's soul that captures your heart. To love, to trust someone with your most prized possession, your heart, in the hope that they might care for it, nurture it, and love it, for you love their's and would treat theirs with the utmost tenderness. To love, to wake up every morning with a smile, and to end every night with an " I Love You." To love, to write your lover's name, a 100 times, and 100 more just because it gives you peace of mind to see their name. To love, to never ask more than love, to never demand. This is not a poem, but, its eating me up, so I had to write it down. Love is always enough !!

To Please You

To please you,
I tried,
and when I couldn't,
I cried,
and when I shouldn't,
I sighed,
but when I did,
I lied.

I still love you, I admit,
that I did try to quit,
but every time I'd sit,
I'd forget I did.
Was it your intention,
to capture my attention,
was it your strategy,
to leave me here in tragedy.

She left me here in this state,
left me, to my fate,
was it absurd,
that I believed every word.
Forget me, and forget this,
maybe I don't deserve bliss,
but God is my witness,
when I say,
that I'd love you forever,
and a day.

A Lover, And His Story.

Why now, my love?
do you say,
that my love is not enough,
when just the other day,
you said,
that there is no way,
our love is dead.

So now, answer me,
and hear my plea,
now that you've treated me,
with so much cruelty.
Your company, I enjoyed,
love, we did share,
my heart you've destroyed,
but why didn't you care ?

Am I to blame,
for you leaving,
or is it a shame,
to keep believing,
that love, isn't a game,
of two people deceiving,
but indeed, a special gift,
that two people are sharing.

Expression Of His Feelings.

Is there a place,
where, I can call you mine ?
you have God's grace,
and your beauty is divine.
Though you may not know,
who I am,
I hope one day, your heart will grow,
and learn to love me again.

People speak about love,
and how its never enough,
but for one day,
share that kind of moment, with me,
and never will I again say,
that I'm not happy.
For being with you,
is as sweet as the honey-dew.

When I close my eyes,
you are all that I see,
and no matter how hard heaven tries,
I can never forget thee.
So next time you see me,
don't even think to say,
that my love will only last,
for one week and a day.

The Wielder of Several Spears

My heart is broken to many a piece,
its fragments scattered by my tears,
can someone tell me where my heart is please?
its been stolen by the wielder of several spears,
I am lost and know not who to trust,
for everyone I see is a cunning stranger,
if you wish to talk to me oh please you must,
not put me in anymore danger,
the weilder of several spears is out to hurt me,
spite and viciousness its motivator,
the heart of the wielder knows no mercy,
and verily it is no procrastinator,
Oh you, hold back your sneers,
there is more to be said,
I used to love the wielder of several spears,
who now wishes me dead,
the stallion of the wielder is quick,
while my horse still needs to stand,
the heart of the wielder made of brick,
and mine poorly made of sand,
yes one day I will bounce back on my feet,
and forget the wielder of many spears,
now you enjoy this treat,
whilst I go and gather my tears.

Eden, My Maiden

Once a upon a time,
I saw the most beautiful girl,
who looked at me and smiled,
till the beating of my heart became wild,
then at one point, it skipped a beat,
for I realized,
this beautiful girl I wanted to meet.

She had the most beautiful, brown eyes,
that by God, I swear,
could light 7 Dark skies.
And she had the most amazing hair,
blond and curly,
I could not help but stare.

Her voice was sweet and entrancing,
my brain began dancing.
With care and tenderness,
she chose her words,
and with such fondness,
she spoke of birds.

And how could this be,
she admitted, she loved me,
Is this reality or fantasy,
for my body has never felt such ecstasy.

I knew not who she was,
so with her, I tired to discuss,
and when I brought it up,
she playfully told me to shut up.

My life became a dream,
we were like coffee and cream,
all was well,
so far as I can tell.

Then, one starry night,
as she held me tight,
she began to cry,
she couldn't bear to tell me, Goodbye.
For she had to go,
to where, I still don't know,
and that is the story of my maiden,
whom I lovingly call Eden.

Stars Are Dying

The stars are constantly dying,
what's the point in trying ?
when you can't even see,
how much you mean to me !

I guess I should go,
I wish, I never loved you so,
my heart you chose to break,
I can't forgive you, for that mistake.

But wait, please tell me why,
did you have to lie,
did you really have to say,
forever, and a day ?

You claimed to have cared,
though no cruelty was spared,
and now, you leave me here crying,
at the stars, that are constantly dying.

Now, every time I see your face,
I curse the stars and space,
and the world for its disgrace,
for doing this to me,
when I truly believed in love, and destiny.

They say, when two lover's are together,
happily they'll live forever,
believe in that I will never,
for love is just one season, of good weather !

Angel

Is she an angel ?
for how can she be so wonderful,
with those eye's so amazing,
I am left lost and gazing.

I know not who she is,
but I have never felt like this,
longing for her lips to kiss,
for succeeding, will bring utter bliss.

She sings to me,
with the most beautiful melody,
that by God I swear, is heavenly,
it leaves me lovesick, happy.

It is her smile,
that makes this life worthwhile,
and it is her touch,
that I long for so much.

She speaks with such care and ease,
for her purpose is not to please,
fondly she speaks of trees,
and all the inhabitants of the seas.

She knows not what she has done,
for she has shot me with cupids gun,
now I am helplessly in love,
with the angel from above.